Real life happened this week...... my birthday!!!! It just so happens that in this little city I live in there is lots of free food on your birthday. I thought a lot about it before hand. I tried to sort of strategize and to remind myself that although the food was free the calories weren't. :) At the same time though, I didn't want to worry too much about diet and calories on my birthday. So, we went for the yummy free food. I ate small portions. My hubby and I shared dessert. I sent pictures of everything I ate to Hope. It somehow made me feel accountable if she knew what I was eating. :) I was really proud of my self-control. I didn't finish anything. I also gave myself my birthday off from the gym. I opted for a bubble bath instead. :)
I had some great work outs this week. I am also really making an effort to be more active in my daily life. We are parking farther away and walking. When I take the kids to play at the park rather than sitting and watching them I will walk around the park. If I have a couple of free minutes I’ll do squats, crunches, or push-ups. I have made this shift in my thinking to always consider how I can be more active.
I still am really working on my attitude and self esteem. The fact is that it is not easy to be a chubby girl in this world. We have the world bombarding us from every direction telling us how we should look and dress. I did a work out with my hubby and ventured to the dreaded weight side of the gym. I nearly talked myself out of it several times on our short drive to the gym. I easily could have found myself in tears. But, I told myself that if I work hard I will see the results. I told myself that I could care less what other people think of me. I tried not to look in the mirror. If I did I focused on my pretty face rather than my jiggly body. I tried to ignore all of the brawny men lifting weights. In my mind they were laughing at me. But, I did it. I worked out like a man. I did everything my hubby told me to do and sweat like crazy. I’m still sore. I’m not saying it’s going to be easy for me to return to that side of the gym. It’s not!!! But, I’m going to do hard things so that I can become the girl I want to be. It won’t be long before I will be proud of the reflection I see in the mirror. I will remind myself daily that I am a daughter of God and that this body is a miraculous gift from him. It has given me 4 beautiful children. It’s time for me to take care of it. It’s time for me to take care of myself. Whew, I feel better now that I got that off my chest. J
So, this week, my birthday week, I am
down 1.6 pounds
for a total of 13.6 pounds down