Saturday, August 24, 2013

The Saturday Skinny::: Robyn

A couple of weeks ago Hope sent me a text telling me she had blogged. She then followed it by saying that her blogs aren’t nearly as deep and meaningful as mine. I laughed out loud. No literally. Then I responded, “Yeah, just way more inspirational because you actually lose weight!” So, here we go again. Deep and meaningful? That’s questionable. The truth, the whole truth, and nothing but the truth? That’s all I have to give.

I haven’t blogged in 3 weeks I think. My last blog I set some goals for myself. I’ve done pretty well with those. I have been counting my WW points and really paying attention to what I”m eating. I’ve also been really consistent going to the gym. I have been running a lot. I can now officially run a 5k on the treadmill. I’m slow. This week I went a little faster and ran a 12 min mile or 5 mph on the treadmill. I feel stronger. I feel more fit. I even got some real gym clothes. I’ve always been embarrassed in my sweat pants and t-shirts, but I didn’t feel ready for spandex. :) I got some good running capris and pants (yes with spandex) and wear long tank tops or shirts that keep my problem areas covered. I feel more like I belong there though and it seems to help me have a more positive experience. I’m still self conscious at the gym. I know it’s silly.

So, all of that being said, with pretty good eating and pretty good exercise, I am up 5 lbs for the last 3 weeks. :( I don’t really know what to say? I have been sad about it obviously. But, trying really hard not to let it get me down and trying really hard not to give up. I am a person of faith. So, I’ve been praying about it. Questioning, what should I do differently?

I was talking to a friend at church about it last week, and she suggested to me that maybe right now, I really need to focus on loving myself how I am, no matter what weight I am. That really hit home for me. So, this week, I’ve been trying really hard to change my attitude. To appreciate the things I like about myself, and to really focus on being thankful for my body in the now.

This is going to sound silly, but I’ve made more of an effort to make myself cute. I have been doing my hair (even though it’s 110), wearing make-up, and trying to dress cute. I feel so much better about myself if I feel cute. I know that seems so shallow. But, I’m a girl. I can’t tell you how many people this week told me how good I looked and how I look so thin. HA! I fooled them. :) But, really, I do feel better about myself. Maybe part of the reason I gained the weight back was because I didn’t learn to really love myself for who I am no matter what weight I am. Even at my lowest, I was unhappy with my body. So, I am still trying to lose weight of course. I’m not giving up. But, I’m also really focusing on how I feel about myself and trying to love myself how I am. A little make-up and a cute outfit and I can still feel good about myself. :)

I feel like my Father in Heaven is always so mindful of me and my needs. I’m so thankful for all of you who have reached out to me in the last week or so. I know that you are his hands and as you serve and love me you serve and love him. I am so touched. I have received countless texts and messages encouraging me and just telling me you love me. I’m so thankful to share my life with so many amazing people. I hope I give back even just a little of what I receive.

Bend, at it, sweat at it, smile at it too, because your body is a temple. :) I'm not giving up.      

Thursday, August 22, 2013

short and sweet.

Here's the truth...summer has been hard!
I can't wait to get back into a routine for my workouts.
I need motivation.
I need to get back on track.
I only have 28 lbs to go before I reach my goal.
I'm trying not to be focused on the numbers...but I am.
Sometimes I feel like I have to be or I will fall off the wagon.
So my weigh in stunk yesterday.
I am 1 pound up.
I knew I would be.
No excuses.
I know what I need to do.
Now, I'm going to do it!
No excuses.


Wednesday, August 14, 2013

slowly but surely...

Apparently I have gone from an every week blog post, to an every other week blog post.
I have to say that I love getting messages asking me about my posts. I love that you are anticipating my weigh ins as much as I do :)
This one will be short and sweet.
Life is CRAZY right now! Summer has been harder then I thought it would be. Though I keep losing, it's slow as molasses. I'm not complaining, but I'm looking forward to getting back into a routine.
I have been the biggest slacker about working out. It's not like I'm sitting around eating bon bons; I just haven't had time. But I know that's just an excuse. I NEED to get back to being consistent.
So over the past 2 weeks I have lost a total of...two pounds.
Although I have lost, I can feel the effects of not working out consistently.
My goal is to get back to the gym this week and drink MORE water. I don't drink soda or anything but I've been feeling dehydrated. Dehydration leads to the feeling of hunger. I love that I am this in tune with my body!
Onward and upward my friends.
Here's to getting back to it...
me & my wonderful hubby
{rocking my new hot pink pants}
me & my gorgeous sis

Sunday, August 4, 2013

The Saturday Skinny::: Robyn

Okay, so it's not Saturday. I'm a week and a day late. But, here I am. 

“The days are long but the years are short…….” Gretchen Rubin

I can’t believe how summer has flown by and here I find myself in August ready to start another school year with my kiddos. I had such great intentions for the summer. Yet, it has come and gone and I find myself, not where I wanted to.

I skipped a week blogging. I was enjoying the last week of summer. Our days have been incredibly hectic. I have an insanely blessed life.

Two Mondays ago (right after my last blog) I stepped on the scale and was devastated when I found myself 6 pounds up. I cried for a few minutes. Then I decided that wasn’t doing me any good. I decided not to feel sorry for myself and to get to work. The last 2 weeks I have made really good choices and I feel great. I lost 4 of those pounds back again and today sit 2 pounds up for a total of 24.6 pounds lost.

I’m going to focus on the 24 pounds lost rather than the temporary 2 pound gain.

As we get ready to start school again it is a natural time for me to look at my life and set some goals. Things in my life have sort of settled down and I feel like I can put a stronger emphasis on my weight loss efforts (well, besides the fact that we have to complete 20 hours of home schooling per day, 5 hours per kid, no biggie J).

I decided to be a little more dedicated and a lot more organized with my efforts. I am starting a weight loss journal. I feel like I need something tangible with really basic things that I can measure. I am focusing on 3 areas: exercise, food, and attitude. At the end of each day I will look back and check my progress for the day. I’m even going to give myself stickers on good days (it’s pathetic how motivated I am to earn a sticker J). I feel like I need more accountability on a daily basis. My goals:

-Gym 5 days a week
-Increase daily steps (track steps)
-Strength training 5 days a week (sit ups, push ups, squats, etc…)

-Track WW points (been paying for and not using for months)
-Eat breakfast
-Dinner @ home 5 nights a week (we eat out too much)
-More fruit and veggies
-100oz water daily (I live in the valley of the sun)

-Dismiss negative thoughts about myself
-Focus and accentuate the positive
-Avoid stressful situations where possible

I haven’t set any specific weight loss goals (I still want to lose 70lbs total). I’m not giving myself a time table. I’m hoping to make some positive changes, see some results and build some confidence back. It’s crazy to me to think that just a few years ago I lost over 100 pounds, yet I don’t think I know how to lose weight????? I’m going back to how I did it originally and reminding myself that I know how to do this, I’ve done it before, and I can do it again.
I feel better knowing that I have a plan. So here’s hoping to a smooth first week of school, and a successful week of weight loss. Bend at it, sweat at it, smile at it too, because my body is a temple.