Good news or bad news first? ……….sigh…………I’m gonna just go for the bad news, get it out there and over with and then share my happy story with you.
So, here it is……. I’m up 2 pounds for the week………. Yech……… so sad, let me just take a minute to cry and collect myself.
That’s that! I’m done being sad, I’m done being hard on myself. We were vacationing and I had the best week. We went to Disneyland, the beach, Sea World, and then Disneyland again! My choices are to be hard on myself and give up because it’s too hard (that’s what I’ve done a million times in the past) or to forgive myself, recommit, and move on. It’s a new day. I am feeling optimistic. I can do this. I believe in myself. I am so excited for a great week. Really, I am ready for 9 great weeks. School starts again in 9 and a half weeks. I know it will fly by. Even our summer schedule gets hectic. But, I am committed to really getting my workouts in, drinking lots of water, only eating good carbs, and losing a ton of weight. I love summer.
Now, for my good news!!!!! About a year ago we went to Sea World with some of my hubby’s extended family. We had been taking turns riding rides and watching little kids who weren’t tall enough. My son Bear and I went to get on an awesome looking roller coaster. I didn’t notice at the beginning of the line the warning that some guests may not fit. They have a chair to try out if you are a “larger” guest. So, when I went to get on the ride and the restraint didn’t fit down over my tummy I was more than devastated. Completely mortified, embarrassed, there aren’t really words. My son didn’t understand why we had to get off. I did a little silent sob, wiped my face and told him Daddy would come back and ride with him. I really did a good job of putting my chin up and enjoying the rest of the day. But, when we hit the car to drive back to the hotel I cried. Like really cried. I was so disappointed that I had let myself get to that point. I was so embarrassed and so sad. I swore I wouldn’t come back to Sea World until I would fit on that ride. Guess what I did this weekend?!?! Yep you guessed it. I rode the roller coaster. I tried the seat out front to make sure before I got on. I was scared. What if??? I easily fit though with room to spare. I was so excited!!!!!! Yay, yay, yay!!! I’m excited to keep going so that I can do more fun stuff and feel comfortable, healthy, and happy in my body.
|How many people can you fit on Shamu? We're with my brother Joe and his family. I love them!!|
|I took a picture of the picture :), I love that it says proof all over it. It's proof that I fit, proof that I rode the ride!!! :) I'm riding with my brother Joe. :)|
Of course, I am sad that I am up, but I am choosing to focus on my accomplishments and to not give up. I know that I can do this. I want to be healthier. I want to know that I am the best that I can be. I am choosing each day, each moment to enjoy the journey and to be happy in my now.